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My name is Vanessa Neo Kai Xuan Bte Mohammed Yeti Suwati Arati. Currently studying in Whitley Secondary School. Going to YJC next year (don't ask me why). Am 16 this year and loves to be updated with the latest music! may be childish at times. I'm really cheerful and friendly but people who see me for the first time may think that i'm hard to get along with. Hope to make more friends! feel free to view around and remember to tag!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

25 October 2007

My boyfriend is 9 years older than me!! Can you believe it? He works beside my mum's shop as a used-phone specialist. Perhaps its because of the age gap which contributed to the communication barrier between us.

Initially, we were both very happy being together, but sweet things don't last long. Soon, we can't seem to communicate. He seems to be avoiding me. I think his heart has changed. But my heart has not change. I'm feeling so miserable now. It's like a one-sided love relationship.

He just came back from a Thailand Trip with his 'friends'. However, he did not get any gift for me and dismiss me with a lame excuse saying "i did not buy anything there coz there is nothing suitable for me". Although he claims that the stuff there is unsuitable for him, but he wears a brand new watch, slippers and shirt. What am i going to think?!! I guess all his money is spend womanizing! I can't stop myself from feeling that he is 'dirty' after he came back.

I'm reali fed-up with his 'don't care' attitude. I wishes to hate him but i just can't bring myself to it. Recently, i heard from my mum that he will be shifting his shop to another venue soon. I think we will lose contact by then. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? Should i end this relationship? I don't wish to get hurt.