everything was fine all the while. but now than i realised, actuali there is real problems between me and my mum. Sometimes i just feel that im not her real daughter. reali. haiz. but from young until now, i nv ever had this kind of feeling before de. how come suddenly got? when eating dinner together, how come i will feel left out? last time dun have de leh..

Recently, i was sick. On one particular night, we were all sitting in the living room watching tv. I took out the thermometer to take my body temperature. It was 38.6 degrees celsius! High fever leh. I just kept quiet. My mum knew i was takin temperature. But she din even asked me what was my temperature. She just walked into the bedroom and slp. =.= The reason for me to keep quiet is becoz i want her to ask me personally. I want her to care for me. But she didn't. nvm. so i din tell her. and i nv complained abt my sickness becoz i dun want to waste her money visiting the doctor. the next day, the fever was gone, and my sickness got slightly better. Despite being sick, i still went down to the shop to help her look after it for awhile. Becoz i know she have to eat lunch. But in the end, she asked me to do this and do that. wth. I am sick leh. how come she dun understand the meaning of "sick"? even if i nv tell her that im sick, she can tell from my behaviour wat. And somemore i was wearing sweater leh. even an auntie can also ask me whether im sick anot. so is she trying to pretend that she dunno im sick? im so damn sad. if the one who was sick is my younger brother, she surely will be very anxious de lor. thats why i think she dun treat me as her daughter.

few days back, i was eating dinner at the coffee shop wif one of my fren. she came and said something to me: "Eh, 你买饭给你妹妹了没有?!! 快点买! 然后给我!我要回家了!”. this is how rude she is. my fren said how come ur mum so rude to you de? ony after what he said then i realised how rude she was to me. Maybe i didn't notice becoz i was used to it bah. haha. funny leh. where got mother speak like this to her child de. maybe im not her cihld lah.

another thing is trust. I nd her trust. Why she canot give me her trust? Everytime must suspect me. suspect this suspect that. walao, come on lah. im her child leh. canot even trust me meh? everytime i will go study with my frens. i reali study! bt she will suspect me. say i go out play. =.= does she know how hurt it is? maybe to others this may not seem hurting, but to me, im reali hurt by this comment. u know why? becoz i was reali studying. i was studying very very hard. my mid-year results reali improved alot. but she just suspect me like that. i canot accept this comment. I study hard for her, but she dun care abt me. why should i study? haha.

She asked me to give my bro tuition and she say she will pay me. I agreed to it. Initially, i dun want to teach de lor. Bt in the end i agreed becoz i want to help my bro improve. U know how much she pays me? $70 for 3 subjects. 1 wk 5 days! Very cheap le lor. extremely cheap lor. ppl may think family wat, why must pay money de. but u think again, im sec4 this year. i nd my own time to study. i shouldn't be giving tuition de lor. but i accepted it becoz of my bro. my bro is only p5 this year leh, still got one year plus to PSLE. for me leh? less than half a year. but she dun care abt my o levels de. is this favouritism? sometimes i reali hate her. this year is olvl. most of my frens engage tuition teachers to help them improve. but for me, she say i dunnd tuition ? becoz i can cope on myself. so i relied on myself. my bro leh? only PSLE leh.. more important then me meh? funny leh..

Maybe hor, in her eyes, im just a worker in her shop, who will help her to do the things she dunno how to do. I just dun belong here. sad.

Hi..i'm back. so busy during the first two weeks of sku. haish..no time to blog. tons of hmwk is waiting for me everyday. yah, i'm back! today went for singapore polytechnic's open house lah..so crowded..hate it. anyway, SP is like so far away from my house lah.. inconvenient. but they offer one particular course that i'm interested in, which is under biomedcial science (i.e.cardiac technology). its abt heart lor.. hmm. quite interesting. but still not sure whether should go poly anot. haha. nvm, next friday i'll be going for NYP's open house too. so will reconsider again.

Hey guys, i g2g lah.. still got alot of weekends hmwk to do sia.. haiz. sian leh. but no choice. haha. BB. take care!

Huimin:
Heyhey! Happy New Year too!! :D

Nicholas:
Happy New Year too! and btw, i'm always cheerful de! :P

ShadowSong:
Happy New Year lah! first day of 2008 alrdy want to challenge me le..aiseh..

Sean:
Happy New Year! Lol..very good sia, she actuali tag on ur blog. means she is not angry anymore. and thats gd! :D

Jhao:
Hi! Happy New Year! and must cheer up k! haha. happy-go-lucky! :D

Yvonne:
Hi Yvonne! Happy New Year too! haha. u too, good luck for o lvl's and take care! :D

Justin:
LOL..ah wong arh..long time no see. Happy New Year. And thanks for ur present! appreciate it! and thanks for tagging too! :D

Hi blog. i was so tired last night, meant to post something de, but decided to slp early. Hmm, nvm, i shall blog abt yesterday now.

Basically,
Morning: WSS Homecoming March 2008
Afternoon: Sean came to my mum's shop
Night: BBQ (but cancelled due to raining)

Morning
In the morning, i went to sch wif lijie and amira, for the homecoming march. Early in the morning at 7.30am have to reach sch leh..so tired..=.= haha, anyway, yah. so when we reached sch, we changed into that red shirt they gave us. Than proceeded to assembly and we marched to braddell mrt station, took train to bishan mrt station and marched to bishan mrt station. Actuali, only around half of the sch attended the homecoming march. So when we reach our bishan campus, still have to sing national anthem sia. haiz.. haha. after that, we went to tour around the sch and went bck home. thats all for that program lor. but anyway, our sch is reali beautiful after it is renovated. reali. the hall got air-con leh.. and one more thing, i heard that the classroom of 4E1 is the biggest. ahahahaha. so proud of my class. :P






Afternoon
Sean came to my mum's shop. He came to help me repair my laptop lor. (Read my previous post if you dun know wats wrong wif my laptop). Yah, so he reformatted my laptop. He sat there from 4.30pm to 7.30pm leh. Than while doing it, he chatted wif my mum. haha. anyway, so he solved my laptop's problem. and thank you very much, you've been a great help.

Night
Actuali at night my family got bbq de lor. But in the end, raining than cancelled le. haish.

Sean:
Hmm..i reali dunno leh. haha. :P sorry. :D

ShadowSong:
My title description picture's resolution is quite small leh.

Today morning i went to Deyi Secondary School wif my sis. to buy textbooks and uniform. she will be sec1 next yr. her sch very far sia. take bus 853, still have to walk a long distance before reaching her sch. ..so inconvenient.

Anyway, so we bought everything and went back soon. haha. the calculator she bought can calculate quadratic and cubic eqn sia. lol. so good, the version i'm using dun have this function. haiz.

actuali today afternoon sean planning to come my mum's shop and hlp me repair my laptop de, but cancelled becoz he was very busy. haha. so nvm lor, postpone to tml. :

haha. sean, thanks anyway. thanks for willing to help me :D